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whatiDON'Twanttobe
you're drowning in waters as dark as the shadows.
you're kicking and screaming and fighting,
but all you get is a mouthful of bitterness.
you choke and tears well up in your eyes,
hoping someone will pull you out of it.
but there's only stillness in the air.
the water's thick now, as vicious as molasses.
and all you want.. is to breathe.
you need to get out, but it pulls you under and surrounds you.
and soon, all you see and feel, is empty.
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reevaluation. it's the hardest thing. to step outta yourself for awhile and become a total rational being. sad to say tho, we're usually our greatest and worst critics. and i see that, all the latent negativity that's finally oozing out of me, it's hurting you, even though you're trying like hell to ease my doubts. i can get that way, to block out the things i don't wanna see or hear. but the thing is, sometimes, all i need.. is a positive nudge instead of a smudge out.
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